Ahh! THERE it is!!

And so..
It was there all the time
the Glow
I had misplaced it, forgotten it,
Passion can be so elusive
Why, I'm not sure
How it leaves and how it returns is a mystery
But here...it is recovered.

Benjamin Zander on music and passion Video on TED.com

The bad plus

Ummm.....
For all those intense mathematical, musical, obsessively perfectness aware folk who enquire into new genre bending music ....and who remember the song Tom Sawyer by Rush, please please please listen to The Bad Plus' version. Whews and holy spews!

A day in the bush...

A day in the bush is
is worth two or three in the city
The drive fro is always slower
than the drive to
Mind racing comes to a close

A day in the trees taught
about worth and silence
The rattle of the crow's feathers
echos without sirens
And peace can be breathed

A day in the sky is
a sigh from a lover in the moment after
Where clouds pulse perfection
without comparison to the gusts between.

Apparently....

And things change...
Mercury, coming out of (something-or-other) retroactive moon...
In the retroactive, things from the past come up and old feelings spurned. "Things" are often resolved. Coming out of retroactive...should be on the upside of all this.
Doesn't make much sense in words, but it explains a whole lot of recent behaviours!

mis-ter communication

I refuse to talk to you,
Don't you have Facebook?
This would be so much easier...
You wouldn't care if I did...
Stop putting words in my mouth!
Who said that; did I say that?
It's how I felt
It's my past insecurities...
well maybe you should work on those
I didn't say that!
Maybe I should have.

What's next
A pocket full of change
will jingle when I walk into the room
when I see you
when we can touch
are face to face
TALK

You'll see
It'll be different.

sigh and breathe

Okay...enough of that already.

I know...guilty as charged! I have used this blog as a venting mural - and I have to say it has helped! Good thing friends seem to be the viewers and not the general public! Not that I mind so much if someone new happens to stop by, but i guess it's probably pretty boring.

In any case, I didn't get my job - ha, that sounds pretty ridiculous! (but it's true!) The downside of unions is that those with seniority get the jobs. So...come June or July new opportunities will await. (See the tone difference? whew...out of the clouds and into the blue!) As a positive, glowing references from those around me.

Still fully in love and appreciative of Big al. He's ridiculous good times and I am grateful that through my darkness he hugged.

And...sunshine. What a difference. I rode my mountain bike today and missed my dear female friends who are tough and gentle in the only way women can be!

woot woot to international women's day!!