i did something different yesterday, and now I feel great. I quit my job. Its different because I thought I needed to stay there. I kept telling customers that I was staying. Kept telling myself that I "still need a job". But yesterday I had my limit of crap. Co-workers bitching all day about how she appeared like a psycho last night to her new love interest but also pissed off her ex-boyfriend - oh none of them actually talked to each other, they just texted all night (um...you're all crazy). And I realised that I have a really hard time connecting to someone who bases the success of their relationships on little short hand notes sent electronically. I realized that I had been thrown into someone else's tribe and I need to get home.
That was just part of it, of course, but it was the part that threw me over the edge and made me realize I needed to do something different.
Upon handing in the letter, I felt like the bubble I had been living in had popped; the gas mask I had been breathing through was removed and I could actually breathebreathe exhale again. it was beautiful.
With some success in my art and some options on the table, I feel better equipped than ever before to just do something different. I'm hopeful and feeling the connection to my feet oh so nicely. yay!