ThE RE-Fuse-all

I'm stuck in the refusal.
Often when the call is given, the future hero refuses to heed it. This may be from a sense of duty or obligation, fear, insecurity, a sense of inadequacy, or any of a range of reasons that work to hold the person in his or her current circumstances.
I'm overwhelmed with inadequacy, fear, insecurity, and obligation...
how daunting...
Entrepreneurship....what that means exactly perhaps I'll never know. I see doors opening to me but I just feel like I don't have my shit together in time. A space at the Local artist's studio...but I need this and that to apply. And instead of throwing it all together, I think "maybe in the future". A call to artists for an art show....and I shy from the process because I don't know how it works - have I learned anything about asking questions?
A fear because I don't know what to do - music, paint, clothes, consignment deals, displays, themes, jewelry, whaty what what!?
If there are four boats in the ocean, how do I know which one to get into?
If I'm A procrastinator, how will I ever forgive myself for missed opportunities?

Oh how human of me to feel this insecure